I have loved body-modification since the delicate age of 11. I am now 16, with quite a few modifications of my own; In fact, I just added some scarification today. My mom and I got into a fight, and I wanted something to represent togetherness, so I put two interlinking hearts on my stomach.
At A Glance Author Fa1lur3 Contact Fa1lur3@bme.anon IAM Fa1lur3 When It just happened Artist Self done I was looking through BMEzine.com when I first noticed scarification. It looked so... so cool, so pretty, so tribal, so exotic, and so incredibly beautiful! I asked my mom if I could get it professionally done she, unfortunately, said no. Not an average no but an N-O! After about a month of putting up with my mom's decision to hate body-modifications I started burning a design into my skin.
I was sitting on my bed when I thought to myself, "Wow... I can do this... I can make it work for me." The question was, would people understand? I realized the answer was no, because after I had done all this I left the few on my wrists get some air, and my friend drove up into my driveway with her car. She took one look at me and automatically assigned me with a suicidal label on my head. I don't understand why others don't understand, or what others try not to understand. That night I went to bed early, but not falling asleep. I stayed awake till the folks got to bed so I could do it uninterrupted. I began using my fingernail scratching at my skin and burning it with friction. That worked very well, for a while. I went on the other side of my stomach and, using a lighter and clothes hangers, I put the hangers in the shape I desired, which was an Ankh. Burning the hanger until it glowed orange I slowly dropped it on my skin. I was using some salad tongs my mom had to hold the metal while it was burning. I closed my eyes and winced in pain. I also used that method on various other body parts such as my ankles which have a male and a female symbol. My cleavage has an inverted cross, which is still healing. Scarring was the most painful, yet rewarding experience of my life. I would most certainly NOT recommend the coat hanger method to ANYONE! Amazingly, it worked! Unfortunately, my bedroom smelt of burnt hair for a good 4 days. I got so addicted to the process.
Right before stepping out of the shower I would dry the area under my clavicles... then, with a lit cigarette, I burned little holes, a total of 4 on each side. It hurt very badly, and became infected after that. Every time I would take a shower I'd wince... but I kept on putting irritants on it. I later went to the hospital for an annual physical and my nurse had said that it could cause some sort of cancer formation when I'm old and that I could die. I accepted that as I walked out thanking her. She looked at me like I was about to eat her babies or something, so I kept on walking. She spoke to my mom about getting all my scars and tattoos removed, my mom said simply, no. That was cool, but she said she didn't care enough to pay thousands of dollars to get a scar removed just to have a new one. I agree with her, at least my scar is in a pretty shape. She spoke with my mom about safety concerns and stuff. We left, with nothing to say. Though the woman's advice warned me against it, I kept it going, and kept re-burning it... I wanted those scars! I am 16, and not regretting anything except for the fact I couldn't do more. I would love to learn how to use a cautery pen and do more complex stuff on myself.
My earliest scarification I did on myself healed very nicely. It turned into a slightly raised scar a little lighter in color than my own flesh. I hope all of mine come out that good.
I've decided and drawn out many examples of what I am getting when I turn 18. I want some cuttings done by Lucas Zpira, who is a genius, and some Precision Body Works stuff as well.
All my scars mean something. Personally, the way I see it, is that scars are a way of reminding yourself that you got past the harder times. Sad, depressed and in a mental hospital is what ended up changing my life. I now want to live so I can get more scarification and more body modifications in general.
My newly found new pieces of art are spiritually and emotionally good for the soul. I feel as if I'm much more connected to everything with this experience.