There were many times where I had tossed the thought of flesh pulling/suspending around in my head. At first, it wasn't really something I saw myself doing. But the more I read into it and talked to those who had experienced it for themselves I became more and more enticed by it.
At A Glance Author Krissy Contact Krissy@bme.anon IAM Mezmereyez When It just happened Artist Jody Charlotte Location Vancouver, BC I had experienced it through others about a year ago when I attended my first IAM Vancouver Suspension party. I remember having many mixed feeling at the time. I was drawn to it, yet horrified. (in the best way possible) But it was then that I knew, the next chance I got, I would do a flesh pull and nothing yet no one would stop me. It was something I had to do, for myself.
So finally, this July 3rd, 2004, my chance was here. I spent the entire week prior trying to imagine everything I was about to experience, to put myself in the mind frame to really feel what I was about to endure. Little did I know that what I had imagined would be nothing at all like what I was in store for.
Watching everyone get pierced and lifted into the air made it very difficult for me to wait my turn. I had done so much mental preparation, I figured any longer and I would combust. The golden moment finally came. Again, filled with many mixed emotions as the first hook was pierced. I wanted to cry, to laugh, to scream, to dance, to sing. This was a part of a new beginning for me. I don't mean to get all mushy and obviously spiritual. But for me, that's exactly what it was. The second hook promoted many of the same feelings, only much more consuming.
I wandered around for a while getting use to the feel of the hooks making themselves at home under my flesh. I can honestly say, as I'll say again I'm sure, that I had never felt a feeling like this in my life. And I don't think I could explain it if I tried. It's so many things. By this time I was getting anxious. I wanted to pull so badly. I got rigged to the corner of the room where I could sit, stand, whatever I wanted. I started off in a standing position to get use to the pulling sensation. Taryn and Ike helped me start off, telling me I was doing great and explaining different movements promoted different feelings, and how to balance the hooks to get a good pull going. Again, it's hard to explain exactly what it felt like, I guess all I can really say is that I've never felt anything like it.
It was, well, wonderful.
I tried different positions, standing, on my knees, sitting down, crossed legged. Each one felt different in it's own way. I found crossed legged leaning forward was the best sensation. It allowed me to let myself go and just let loose any feelings I had. I drifted in and out, experiencing memories from my past, present, and future. There were times where I could hear the people around me but it didn't feel like I was hearing it. I know that sounds odd, as I said, this is difficult to explain in any way that would make sense to anyone. I could feel my heart beating through the hooks and a warm sensation overtake me. After that I was gone, for about an hour. Even though it only seemed like minutes. I guess the saying IS true.
"Time flies when your having fun"
As I was saying earlier, this experience changed me, I feel different, more alive if you can believe it. I didn't cry while doing my pull, but when I got home and really started to think about what I had done, it all came out, I cried, I laughed, I sang, and I danced. I look at myself different now. Subtle changes that will make a world of a difference. I set out to accomplish a goal and I came out a winner and a much better person because of it. I pushed myself farther then I ever imagined I could and for that, I know now I can do anything if I want too, if I set my mind to do so. I have many people to thank, and they know who they are. A BIG thank you to Jody and Stephen for making this such a fantastic experience. I owe you more then I could ever possibly give you. I couldn't have done it without you two, and the others who were there. I'd so it again in a heart beat, and as long as I'm pushing myself to the extent of my ability, I say, bring on the 4 point suspen sion next!