This is my story about how I grew from what I used to be to what I am now, through the help of BME and my addiction to the needle.
At A Glance Author modified mushroom Contact modified mushroom@bme.anon When N/A
When I was young in high school,in about ninth grade I wanted to be everything everybody else was. I wanted to be popular and good looking with lots of friends. But hey the world sucks doesn't it? And everything you want just happens to be kicked in your face....
I started to get picked on, just the little immature things kids like to do to each other like throw batteries at you and stab you with pens, say things about you and call your names, you know the little things that just piss you off...
Anyway down to the guts in yr 10 I went through a sever bout of depression I wouldn't eat and was just sad or pissed all the time, I didn't realise it but my friends were moving away from me and I was pushing everything that was close to me far, far away. Then when I realized what I had done, the only thing I could do was cry and to cut..
I was a cutter for a year, not usually violent but enough that I needed something fairly big to clean the blood up afterwards. I loved just before I cut and just after I was finished. When I was in the middle of those sessions I felt like I was drifting away and I wasn't even myself anymore, then when I was finished I was brought back to a world of pain and blood.
After a while I slipped into stealing, drinking, smoking and selling drugs I thought I was on top of life and now I look back and see how bad my life really was. Then I met a few more friends and made a few decisions in life and I started to come back, it was like a breath of fresh air, I felt like I had never breathed b4 and if I had, the air I was breathing was polluted and I was born again.
For the first time in a long while I was finally happy! Happiness, it was like a drink to parched lips, I was so happy, that lasted a long time to about halfway through yr 11 (come on I was a kid a month is a long time to a kid) and I started to go through depression again, all over again and began to re-cut all the scars I had and created a couple more, then I like so many other people discovered BME and I learnt that cutting was ok if it as for the right reasons and then I started visiting the site more often first I started once a month then every few wks until I was on every day like I still am now (I am completely hooked to BME). After I discovered this wonderful site and saw that I was not alone I became a better person I slipped out of that lifestyle and started again new, I got my nipple, helix and both lobes pierced the lobes are both now up to 1 inch and I am so proud of them, my nipple is still there and so is my helix, I was happy again but at the end of year 12 I started to lose it again then I was introduced by myself in my room to play piercing
I had never pierced myself before and I have an extremely low pain tolerance ad I had always been so scared of it, I came back from school so upset and I went straight to BME to sort my problems out then I had the thought that I could push a pin through the skin under, then out again! It gave me the best feeling, the pin beneath my skin, a tiny droplet of blood slowly dripping out, it was just so perfect. I had discovered the wonderful world of play piercing!
After a little while I had begun to pierce my self more and more times with different gauges, deeper and in patterns, sometimes spirals sometimes arrows it all depended on what I was feeling at the time. The most favorite thing I used to do and still do now is a simple spiraling circle on my stomach. Then after a little while after that I became absolutely addicted to the needle, I even found some people that also like to share the experience and we try to catch up every few weeks so we can have a session.
One of the reasons why I believe I love play piercing so much is that I control the pain, If it hurts too much I can stop, if it doesn't hurt enough I can always push a little deeper and a little harder and add a few more in the spots that hurt!
If you want to get into this it is fun, exciting and you also have the chance to make and meet a lot of new friends, But of course if your going to have fun be careful alright? Make sure the needles haven't been used before and make sure your area is sterilized, If you choose to disregard these safety guidelines you are asking for trouble e.g.- AIDS and other dangerous diseases. I'm not the most experienced person in this area and that is what BME is for so have fun and be safe!
ROCK ON
The modified mushroom.