I am bluezy and I am in a D/s relationship. due to of this and the fact that I am in training to become more attuned with the forces that are around me, I am quite interested in all sorts of rituals. A friend of mine mentioned the sun dance ritual to me, and I was immediately fascinated.
At A Glance Author bluezy Contact bluezybdsm@yahoo.com When A month ago Artist a friend Studio home Location Belgium
Although I really hate the idea of pain, it is not a strange feeling to me. Pain has been my constant companion since I was 12 so it has become both a fierce enemy and a loyal friend.
I use pain to combat my pain, this may sound paradoxical and it is, but if you ever have the chance to talk to someone who is in constant pain he or she will be able to give you a better insight in my point of view concerning this matter. Because of this I was wondering whether a pull would help me towards my goal of pain relief.
I was very lucky to be able to do my first pull at Mistress' place. She and the people who live there made sure it was an enjoyable experience for me. When I was going to do my first pull I was prepared with the best possible care for cleanliness and safety.
Of course I was wrecked with nerves. I mainly had a few major concerns. Firstly, I was afraid I would not be able to take the piercing and placing of the hooks (OK, that was a minor concern but it was still prominent) secondly, I feared that in the event that I'd faint it would be problematic for Mistress to get me back into the world of the "living" without damaging me nor herself too much and thirdly I was unsure what the opening of my energy channels would do to me. Now if anybody else has these doubts, don't worry about the first or the third reason, placing the hooks is surprisingly painless and opening the energy channels is just a wonderful experience. The chances are that you will pass out, but, for me, the way we took care about was lying down.
Now that you know my reasons for trying a pull, let me try to explain to you how I experienced my first pull:
They started out by using a needle that was a little smaller then the hooks (I believe, that part happened in a bit of a haze) to make a hole after which the hook was placed. I got 2 hooks, 1 on each of the shoulder blades. After the placement of the hooks they had me walk around a bit, getting used to the idea of having 2 reasonable sized hooks in my body (which for me, somewhat of a piercing virgin) was quite strange and the way they led to a strange snappy, contained feeling in my skin (not a bad feeling, mind you, just a totally new experience). then I got hooked up too some ropes that were fixed too the banister of the stairs and allowed to try and move around a bit. Because there were some worries about me fainting, falling and ripping out the hooks I was then asked to lie down on the floor and by adjusting the angle at which I was laying under the fixation point I could vary the tension and the pull. I started experimenting and learned fairly quickly that when I moved my nails over the strings in a scratchy movement, the feeling of the vibrations that go on in your body are really enjoyable. So is strumming the strings for that matter.
Whilst being hooked up, I was in a state of heightened awareness. With that I try to explain that not only was I much more aware of my body, but also, I was more attuned to the environment, I could see, feel, smell, hear things that I beforehand never noticed.
After a while (again, it is impossible for me to state the correct time frame, since time seems to pass in a whole other way when this is happening) I started to be able to channel more and more energy, I had the impression that my heart chackra was being opened up and not in the most gentle way. After some more time had passed I slowly and by accident unhooked myself a little bit so the hooks were removed. Again, this was done with an eye for safety and cleanliness. Of course I, being the perverted weird man that I am (this is not meant to judge everyone else who feels this way) liked having alcohol rubbed into the holes to make sure they were nice and clean.
I stayed floating for a day after, just riding the energies that I had just channeled. Doing a first pull is a wonderful, yet earth shattering experience that I would recommend to everybody. It shook my world and freaked me out quite a bit.
However, since that pulling I have not only become a lot more sensitive for moods and such, I have just started to lower my boundaries. I am learning how to relax and let others come close.
I am not going to try to glorify the experience, since I can not, nor want to predict how you, the reader, will experience a pull, if you want to know more about it, the only thing I can tell you is go for it and expect the unexpected.