At A Glance
Author	fragilesense
Contact	fragilesense@hotmail.com
IAM	fragilesense
When	It just happened

Well tonight has been loads of fun and I feel great :)

I came home from work tonight feeling pretty crappy really about how I look...didn't have a very good me day. I felt so out of control of my body and then I remembered the play piercing needles than Chan posted to me last week. I decided that it was time to both feel in control of my body whilst trying to overcome my recent fear of needles.

After giving my hands and arm a good scrub down I settled in my chair and rested my forearm flat on the PC desk. I thought that seeing I'm going to be scared I'd better had a solid base so that at least I would minimise any flinching. Taking first the 27g needle out of the packaging the realisation that I was about to pierce my own skin with a piece of metal sank in, though strangely I didn't panic, instead I found myself to be surprisingly calm and relaxed.

I pulled the needle out of its protective plastic sheath and studied the metal rod with great attention, and then the strangest thing happened. I was aware of myself moving the tip of the needle up to my forearm but it felt as if I was watching from behind my eyes, as if I was watching someone else. I watched as the tip of the needle very slowly disappeared into my skin and even though I was expecting sharp pain, I felt none. The only word to describe seeing the needle sinking deeper into my skin is surreal, that and maybe empowering. As I slowly pushed the needle into arm, in no rush at all, is was about time that I thought about an exit point for this sharp invader, and so I started to apply mild pressure down onto the needle to bring the tip up through the surface. I could see a bulge appear as the tip came closer and closer to breaking the skin and emerging to the world, and finally, with a very slight sting, it appeared.

I took a step back from myself and fed visually on my now pierced forename. Did I really do that? Am I really capable of piercing my own flesh? The answer to that as unclear as it was is now a resounding yes.

Not wanting to stop there I opened the 20g needle only to have a take a mental gasp at the size of the sterile weapon of choice. The superior size of this needle made me question my quest for losing my play piercing virginity, but I knew that if I were to be in control of my body, even a very small part of it, then I'd forever feel stronger for it.

I began as I did with the 27g needle, slowly bringing the tip closer to my skin, but where the 27g needle had instantly penetrated the initial layers this 20g required more force behind it. There was a definite and clear sensation of a sharp and focused pain as the tip passed into my arm, but it only lasted a few seconds. Within those few seconds the needle had been pushed half its length into my arm without a great deal of force behind it, but now came the interesting bit; the exit. I had to apply more pressure down onto the needle this time and it proved to be much harder to break the surface, though gradually increasing the force driving the needle it finally broke through and oh did it sting, but not for long.

To add some symmetry to the needles I placed another 27g needle next the 20g.

After taking a few treasured photos I reluctantly took the needles out and I was surprised at the lack of pain and at the tiny amount of blood that escaped from the wounds.

I'm definitely going to be play piercing again in the near future. The whole experience, no matter how brief, was so empowering that for a few minutes there I actually felt in control of my entire body. I felt as if I could do anything as long as I focused my mind and trained my attention onto it.

It's now the day after I lost my play piercing virginity and, to say the least, I'm surprised how little last night's encounter has a left its mark. I can very faintly see tiny red dots that I know to be points of entry and exit, though to the casual onlooker it would only seem to be a small number of freckles. After a closer inspection the trail of the needles can be barely made out under the surface of the skin that only gives itself away by a slight tint in the skins shade. There is absolutely no pain or any sign of possible scarring.

To end this experience I'd like to say that play piercing, whilst very empowering and self-governing, is obviously not for everyone. If you want to develop a feeling of control over your body and try to dissolve your fears of pain and needles, then I couldn't advise play piercing more.

Thanks for reading and I encourage all to experience the euphoria and bliss that play piercing has to offer.