i mod for a variety of reasons. aesthetics being one; however, not the primary. my personal benefit from piercing mainly comes from the pain involved; and not as a stress release; it's more of a 'mental discipline'. i have so much trouble getting my mind to work straightly on a regular basis. self inflicted pain gives me a point to focus on, a control to refine. it turns my world inward, in a sort of pseudo-buddhist-inward-existence kind of way. and i like that. one thing body modification assists me in doing is clarifying the world around me. it keeps the gears of my psyche greased.
At A Glance Author oOjustaOo Contact jeebusrocks@anarchist.com Artist me, myself, i. Studio bathroom of the aforesaid. Location hermiston, oregon, USA. so here it goes; prepare yourself for an slightly uninteresting, yet somehow membership-warranting account of my self-done genital piercing...
it all actually started a bit before the actual 'procedure'....one night, i spent the nite at my friend carrie's house....we had baked some vegan peanut butter cookies that didn't turn out too well, watched 'dirty dancing' and 'hairspray' (both of em sucked) and carrie fell asleep on the couch. i, meanwhile, busied myself building a webpage on her computer (which i somehow managed to fuck up.). i was wandering around on wonderfull old bme in my boredom....browsing various female piercings at one point....eventually, i came across something called a 'christine'...one thought ran through my tired, highly impressionable mind....'i want that.' so i stood up and let my legs propel me through carrie's house in search of a safety pin or some such method of dermal penetration. (i know, i know; badbadbad) probably luckily, i couldn't find one, and tossed myself to sleep that night (morning?) feeling that i was somehow missing something...
in the morning i had apparently forgotten about my wanted piercing, and went about life as usual for quite a long time...until a month or so ago, when i was once again considering the possibilities of piercing...and i remembered! the christine! augh....i immediately gathered the necessary supplies...a piercing tool (large gauge safety pin) a primitive numbing agent (frozen somethingorother) and a towel (for the blood, yknow:)). i sat myself down in the bathroom and told my nervous little self that i was going to leave this bathroom newly pierced, or NOT AT ALL. after shaving the intended area (the high point of my pubic bone) , i compressed it with whatever cold thing i'd acquired....after a bit, i obtained a degree of numbness and set aside the frozen object. i then took a good bit of skin between my two fingertips, pressed the tip of the safety pin downward, and clenched my teeth. i kept constant pressure on the pin, and before i knew it, it was almost completely through. a few seconds and a small ::pop:: later, it was through. i knew from past experience that i had no way to insert the jewelry using this primitive method. i snapped the pin shut and left it so for a couple of days...after a few, it retained its shape well enough to be removed without permanent loss of the hole...i replaced it with a 12g acrylic safety pin (one actually intended as body jewelry:)), and then a 10g barbell, which i have now. it's been a relatively painless, easy healing, friendly piercing. except for the anoying fact that my skin seems to have formed a cavity around one end of the barbell and swallows it at every opportunity:) oh well, i'm still happy, and other than that, all seems to be going well. i don't think iam going to stretch it any farther than i already ahve it; in any case, i want to wait a bit, jsut to see how it does, if it will migrate out, etc. i've had no mishaps as of yet, aside from a small child boisterously catapulting themselves into my lap:).oh, and you can't forget the pets; gotta love those. my family happens to favor lap dogs. how ironic. this probably wasn't the best way to do, or even maintain a piercing; it was unsanitary, i used the wrong tools; it probably turned out so well by sheer luck, praise allah (or whatever). as soon as i acquire some more appropriate jewelry, i am planning on adding another 'christine' on either side of the current one; if i can ge the balls to do it, a triangle piercing; also, i think i might do some outer and inner labial ones, depending on the circumstances. something funny; the other day, i actually got to tell someone: "i'm not playing with myself, i'm adjusting my jewelry". now i hate crappy t-shirt slogans as much es the niext guy, but tell me that wasn't great?! actually, i have a sneaking suspicion someone bought me that for my birthday...:) oh well.