I started thinking how personal it would be to have a nice double frenum for only my girlfriend and I to know about. I had been dating her for only 5 months but I really felt some intense emotions for her and we hadn't had sex so I was pretty sure that they meant love. Working as a piercing apprentice made it pretty easy to get a piercing so I figured I would get a double frenum sometime in the next month if business was slow at the shop. It was all set. I had my reason, my way, and the inspiration to do it.
At A Glance Author zach Contact zach@bme.anon When A month ago Artist me Location pittsburgh Then disaster struck. She didn't feel as strongly for me and she wanted to split. This shattered me. I sobbed for days not knowing what to do. I couldn't go to work and I drank my self into oblivion. After a few days I still wanted the double frenum even if the reason was gone. So I went down to the shop and talked to the piercer. He said that if I wanted, he would guide me through it so I could do the piercing myself. Up to that point I still hadn't figured out why I was going through with it. But when he gave me the opportunity to do it my self I realized that this was going to be much more of an emotional growing point then I thought.
I went for it. We began setting up the equipment. I went for two 12 gauge bent barbells parallel to one another. As I washed my self I thought of the girl who broke my heart. Images of her flashed through my mind. I remembered our first date and how bad she felt every time she beat me in chess. I felt a certain thickness in my throat as I noticed an older hickey still on my neck as I looked in the mirror. All that was gone.
He guided me through checking my anatomy as he has done on other people so many times in front of me. I guess he just wanted to be by the book. I made the marks for the entry and exit holes and he looked them over and said that they were good. I lined up the needle for the first piercing and pushed it through. I felt the adrenaline rush and I saw stars for a second. I collected my thoughts and followed the jewelry through. The first one was done. The pain wasn't as bad as I had expected. He asked if I was ready for the next and I said "Fuck Yeah," with much enthusiasm. As I pushed the needle through the second one there was a huge rush. I was so pumped from the first one I didn't stable my self as much for the second. Then I put the jewelry in and it was over. As I put my pants back on I realized I hadn't thought about my ex-girlfriend. For over an hour I had completely been indulging in my self. I had found a reason for the piercing. This was a rite of passag e for me. It sealed my feelings and helped me realize that all good things must come to an end and how much more living I had to do. I didn't do it to despite her. I still did it because of her, and because of me wanting to be free to do what I want.
I still haven't even come close to getting over her, but I have gained more confidence in myself and the things I do. I wanted to tell her about it when I saw her the next day as I was stalking her (just kidding) but when the moment was right I decided it wasn't any of her business. If one day we would get back together I think I would take them out because they would lose their meaning. They are not "anti-her" but they are not for her so it doesn't matter.
It been about two and a half weeks and it is healing nicely. They are still very sensitive and I sort of hope they stay super sensitive but not this much. I am probably going to change the jewelry to cbr's and I may stretch to a ten if they heal as beautifully as I expect. As for the girl... I don't know yet. She seems like she really misses me and I can't help but cry every once in a while when I think about her. It would be nice to go back with her and see how long I could keep her from knowing about my under-the-belt secret. But what fun would that be. For right know though ill just thinking about my next modification. All I need is my reason and my inspiration.