Doing my Frenum

At A Glance Author Desama Contact Desama@bme.anon Artist Wimply experiences - double trouble Studio At home Location no studio, alone in germany near the baltic sea

Since I am 12 I am followed by an fantazy. It didn't grow on my own, I saw it in old porn magazine that was called easily 'Fetish'. I cannot say if viewing this pics activated something that has always been in me or if it implanted its idea.

A dominant woman plays there with a masochistic man. He is pierced in his cock, more exactly it is a frenum. I think the diameter was around 3 cm, the material diameter around 2mm. So the ring could hang down or be placed around the glans.

He had to place his ring around her heel, she pulled the ring and so on. That with me - I only knew around five playboy magazins (german ones, that only show breasts and no genitals).

So I was pretty shoked. How can someone stitch into a genital, while I was running away by an normal injection?

I carried this theme for a long time in me. Since I am 18 I watched a lot of porn on video (since I was allowed to enter those parts of the video shops). Often I took piercing-movies with pierced actresses.

In my relations I was used to have 'normal' sex, but more and more I felt that I missed something all the time. I needed really a lot of time to see that I liked, no, that I loved piercing material and other harder stuff. Encourages by my girlfriend I found a community in Berlin with that we could discuss sexuality that others would consider as not fully normal or maybe perverted.

Today I know that nothing is perverted that people allow each other, but that had to be learned. I found that a lot of people is full with fantasies and piercings are pretty harmless against some other wishes people have. Talking free with people outside of our community I found, that they are often as full with ideas as the 'insiders'.

After long times I could permit feeling what I felt.

Now it was a lot of pracice to do. My girlfriend was interested in piercing and did a nipple by an piercer. Bad experience! Hurted like hell as she said, bad and unclean factory atmosphere although we went to an expensive silver smith. Not even a motivation for me.

But I described my wish. The piercer answered that my frenum idea was dangerous and he would not do it. To hot.

So I asked another one in Berlin. This one said, it was no problem but some days later our friends in the community told about worst case experiences with him - possibly since he does everything without knowing what he does.

So I came to the point, where I decided to try it by myself. First problem: Where to get those special hollow needle (I only know the german terms 'Braunüle' or medical 'Venenverweilkanüle', guess its called braunule in english). Again I went to piercers to buy such a thing. One of them wanted around 50 $ for such a thing and the others answered, they cannot sell it to me, since I could injure me.

Talking with the friends of our little community I heard, that I can simply go to the pharmacy [drugstore]. If someone asked for what I liked such a thing, I should say, that I am nursing old people.

Well, three days later my pharmacy had the braunule. But when to start? Yes it sounds silly, but I still had problems to explain my girlfriend playing with myself. Since I had those last inner prison I really waited a while, until she was travelling for around two weeks.

I had from temporarily needle plays little experience how to work 'under the skin' - that was necessary for the piercing I wanted. Now I had a free area but I needed stimulation. I did not like an 'industrial' atmosphere like my girlfriend (even with intensive aftercare her nipple pierings did not heal after a year, so she removed her nipple-ring. But maybe it was a mental problem, she never accepted it, since she did it only to to me great favor).

For that problem I took a package of porno-movies with me. I liked to be hot for my fantasy. Movies with men serving women in masochistic ways (normally I play the dominant part, I think I have really hard sadistic minds) - but for that thing I needed the view from the devotional part. Placing the needle and doing the stitch without anaesthesia is a more masochistic thing. I know, I have both sides, I can switch but I need the right trigger for it. I never found a woman that I liked to dominate me, I think I have to desire such a woman but I should not love her. Such an relationship I had not until today. No matter, in my fantasy I can such this job.

After being activated and having a really hard cock (three special videos later without masturbating) I went to my bathroom. I knew, that this could become a bloody job. I packed out the braunule and placed it in a bottle of Kodan, a disinfecting fluid, that european piercers and medics use (with around 25 % alcohol). Than I sprayed the glance and the foreskin around the frenum with Kodan a lot of times. I felt a big prickling in my stomach, just like being enarmored, conducted by a tremling.

I saw how the piercer of my girlfriend drew a point to stitch in and another one to come out. Surely that was not a normally pen, I guess such one would contaminate the wound, so I started without. I looked for vains on the foreskin at the place I entered and at the place I would come out (otherwise I would be forced to do a wry piercing). The special thing I liked - and that the piercers did not do - was wide and pretty high, near to the glans. So it is hard to avoid to hit the glans (doing it through the glans was absolutely not my fantasy, on the other hand I heard that this enormous dangerous - simply not what I miss). I began short under the glans, 1 cm right from the middle, and tried to enter the braunule. From the former needle plays I knew that there are different intensive sections from the skin. The point I choose hurted extremely with a kind of 'deep humming' (it's hard to describe the 'colors of hurting' to people that do not have equivalent experiences - only those who have felt such things will probably know what I mean). So I decided, that this is a bad place. Maybe near to a vein or a nerve. I was looking forward to satisfaction and not to maximal damage! The second point was not much better. But the third was okay. This felt like a 'sharp' or 'high tone', not like a hard hit with a fist (like the first trials) but like someone trying to tear on your skin between fingernails. The braunule entered some millimeters, the conical top was nearly inside.

Since I also had no tongs, I had to work otherwise. After the needle entered I changed the direction away from the urethra. The skin seems to be layed loose around the blood filling parts and the urethra. I led it near to the surface in a kind of a bow around the inner parts without injuring them. It happened that I hit them short but that is another color of hurt, the 'tearing' increases straightly to a kind of bad 'burning'. Only a small contact is enough. If that happened I fastly let the braunule back a little bit, went a little bit more to the surface and tried again.

Millimeter by millimeter it went on. I think I needed around half an hour until I came to the other side (but all in all without problems). A really new color arises by contacting the other side of the skin where you want to come out. Well, thats a shower, a sunburst, one of those harmonically controlled feedbacks by e-guitars (don't forget: you need to have a masochistic part to ever come to this point, otherwise you never will come to this - and even when, you won't see what I saw). It's a hurt but with nuances of a climax. Tipping the other side from inside is intensive - it is the highest thing I felt until today and it is bizarre beautiful.

On the other hand I thought I never will come through. Is that to moment, to call a piercer to bring to the end? Even here are places that 'sound' ok and others that seems to signal, that it will be bad to use them. After having found a good place I presses the braunule against it. FIZZLING feeling! No way.

But what else? Slowly the hardness is getting lost. I try it with a resistance from outside, pressing the thumb against the place where I like the needle to escape. Seems to work, but hurts in thumb *and* glans. I fear to injure my thumb, if the needle escaped suddenly. Does it work better when the cock is hard or is good, that he sunk? Hard seemed better. So I go back with my half done work to the living room where my tv and the video were. I looked for great women doing hard cock torture to feel together with one of those guys. That worked after a while. In that time the needle moved a little outside backwards. Back to the bathroom I continued. A quarter later I was back to the old point. What about using a cork? Is that a solution? Maybe, I read a lot of piercers work with corks (in some videos I also saw piercers working with corks). But what is with the crumbs? When the needle enters the cork, it gives crumbs - that's what I remember from opening wine. It cannot be good to leave crumbs in the wound. So I decided again.

One more time I tried to press to the inner right side with the needle. Ok - give more! I remember that it worked sometimes with the former needle games this way - the skin seemed to become tired. The feeling intensives to another high and leaves! The top of the needle sticks tightly in the skin, the hurt is really few. Now a little more pressure and ... yes! A little success, the needle escapes with a dust corn size in the horny part of my thumbs skin. No matter.

Now a new job - enlarging the hole to really get out the needle on the other side. Does that rip the skin or is it a kind of cutting? Anyway, a little pause. Let the hurt set a little, back to the video in the living room. With a hard cock and the view of the rigth dominant women in my mind the last thing could be done.

Back to bath with again a hard cock I pressure the needle with all my power. Certainly that was not my real power, not one percent, but with that trembling it was really all I could offer. One more millimeter the needle moved. Now in my mind that heel from the women in my first porn magazine (guess she is named Becky Savage). She wants me to do this, to use me for such games! This mind gives a lot of energy.

The slowly strechting of the skin when the braunule escapes more and more is another flushing color, brilliant, hard, beautiful. And ready.

I can move the braunule on the tubular part forward and back. Great thing. I can pull it up, down and to the front. Excellent feeling at the frenum. But something misses - the ring!

I bought an 2mm strong ring with 260 mm diameter size. Damned - the braunule is exact the same size, I cannot bring out the ring by removing the braunule, as the normal procedure.

Leave it and try with a new braunule?

It will blood endless, no matter if I place the ring after removing the braunule or if I let it close after a while. Hope to be able to stop the blood, a 2 mm hole is a 2 mm hole on a pretty bloody place.

But I was right, to go to the bathroom. It could blood ...

I stand bevor the wash basin, the cock inside, the porcellein is ugly cold! (I think that was more ugly than the stitching hurted).

I remove the braunule and there are rivers of blood. Remembers on the shower-scene in Psycho but instead of Vera Miles in the shower there is my cock in the bassin.

With my thumb I try to plug up the left hole, with the ring I try to enter the right side.

And that works better than expected. It is relative easy to get the ring in. Perfect.

And so also the blood stopped. Not too bad - by this way the wound cleaned absolutly sure in the stream.

But what's now? Cruel and curious itching! My God! How to stop this? All those fantasies, when it was healed! But how long should this need? 10 days, 20 days? Even two would have been to much. Impossible. In my flat there are a lot of sexual tools like clambs an weights, but here? No matter, it urges! So I take two stirrups as weights. Well, not enough. I place mandarines (yes, fruits) on both sides of the stirrups. Whoa - great feeling! For that I did it.

What more can be done? I know, my fantasy offers more. I lay on the back on do nothing than pull on the piercing. After a while the movement of Beckys heel increases and pulls more and more (not really, it's still only my hand). A rippy feeling, this inner stretching. Those live-long fantasy feels unbeliveable. This works, up to the highest. Without any stimulation all those sex and deeds and videos and porn and intensity shoots around my head.

That piercing was the best thing, I ever did. NOW I feel, what to fuck really means. Penetrating was not my first pratice, it was ok but doing it with the hand was also ok. Now I fell third the times than earlier.

Everything went to the best, after eight days I could remove the ring to clean without problem. The secretion stoped fastly, after 20 days left the aftercare and treated the piercing normal with soap. All without problem.

In difference to my girlfriend I see the mental position. Maybe she let no chance to heal hers, since inside it was a strange thing. For me an old dream came true. I think that is important.

Doing it like I did?

Hm. This evening is over. Two hard hours, since I was too cowardly to go to a piercer. (One more problem is, that I disliked a man to handle on my cock. Finding a female piercer was not succesful, maybe that had helped my dirty fantasies). All this had be done in some minutes by an professional and with fewer than tenth of that suffering, okay. But I liked a special thing, was I said wide and near to the glans - to do things with big weights or such heel fantasies.

With a tongs, I am sure the urethra were injured, so I guess there was no other way. Another question is, if an piercing have to be that special. For me - with my early minting story - there was no alternative. And I am glad to have done it this way.

And even if that sounded cruel sometimes, I liked this evening (not only afterwards, as it happened also). Playing with needles on the inner side of foreskin is until today a great stimulation for me.

Don't forget that this can end really worse. Nothing in my procedure was professional and using the piercing straight after being done is a stupid idea. Ok it worked without problem, but that is not necessary the case.