At A Glance
Author	guano ape
Contact	guano ape@bme.anon
When	A year ago

About a year ago, maybe a little over a year, I had both my nipples pierced as it was something I had been fascinated with since I was a young girl. I was a belly dancer in my early teens and danced with a troupe of girls who where all tattooed and into body mods. Three of the dancers had nipple piercings and after seeing how beautiful it looked it became a constant desire to have piercings of my own.I wanted to be just like them but they were older and I was just too young to get pierced at that time. So I decided to bide my time and wait my turn to live out this fixation. All through my teens I was always thinking about it and I knew that it was something I was determined to do I was just waiting for the right time, and of course the right age! I was just fifteen at the time I think, and the studios where I am from were very strict and there was no way I would get my parents to sign a consent form! So, I waited and waited..

Later on I became involved with a body piercer and told him about my interest in nipple piercings and soon after I was in the studio about to get pierced! I remember thinking that it was the right time and it helped that it was being done by someone I loved and was comfortable around! After he had marked me I lay down and was so nervous but I knew it was something I just had to do! I remember him bringing out the needles and these being my first piercings with a needle, I got such a fright at the size of them and just how evil they looked! He said, "are you ready?" I don't think I even said anything..I think I just nodded and he brought that needle up to my nipple and it was done in two swift movements..

I remember the pain shooting straight through to my back and for a minute I thought "I cant go through with the next one" but my boyfriend at the time was very calming and it was all over so quickly!Also it wasn't an unpleasant pain it was a pain that consumes you for a minute and then slowly ebbs away and you feel euphoric!Something I have become addicted to just not with piercings but with tattoos rather!

Afterward I was so pleased I had finally done it!And I felt on top of the world..I was becoming the person I had so longed to become back in the days when I was in awe of the girls I was dancing with!

But the bliss didn't last when we noticed that (this a was a while after) that they weren't healing up nicely and my right one had actually started migrating towards the bottom of my nipple.Also they were always weeping and bleeding. So I had to remove them, with some reluctance from me, and I let them close up and I was to have them re-pierced once they were closed up. I was dreading the pain again but it's what I wanted so I had them redone. Ouch...re-piercing through old holes was worse and I only had the one done again. It was really painful the second time round as I knew what pain to expect and I was really tensed up and anxious! Also I had just had a foot op a couple of days before and I think my body just wasn't as strong!

Unfortunately once again it didn't heal up and every time I bumped it it would pus and weep and I started getting scar tissue. I kept it in for about 8 months and really hoped it would heal up and stop weeping but it just did not! Also it was sometimes sore and sensitive and a little itchy and scar tissue was really starting to build up on the left side, but i so badly wanted to keep it!

Around that time my relationship was taking strain and I felt like I was losing him, so I thought if I hang on to the piercing I will have something to remind me of him but, it wasn't nice to look at when all it did was have crusty stuff and dried blood around it!!I knew I would have to take it out sooner or later.Eventually we split up and to let go of him -and to justify removing the piercing in my mind- I removed it and have not pierced again since. I was reluctant to have to remove it but I used the idea of letting him go to make sense of it all and by removing it it I said my farewell..to two things I loved dearly. But two things that obviously just weren't meant to be....